(December 1, 2016 at 11:43 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: Lapses happen. I doubt there's many alcoholics who haven't had one. Early recovery is a very emotional time anyway -- at least it was (and sometimes still is, even after almost a year) for me. I was prone to anxiety attacks and wild emotional swings, because I wasn't used to feeling these feelings -- I was accustomed to anaesthetizing them. It sounds to me like you were doing a little bit of that.
Yes, I think that's exactly what I was doing. And omg emotional swings! Today it was especially bad. I didn't drink though, and now I'm feeling better. It's almost like I don't need to regulate my emotions by abusing substances...weird!
Quote:Be aware as well that holidays, with the stress of family and events, are pretty well-known triggers.
You're doing the right thing, Gem. Get back on the horse and ride some more, and don't beat yourself up for slipping up ... instead, take heart in the fact that you put three weeks sober together, and know that you can beat that.
Much love, hon.
Thanks, Thump
How are things going for you? I'm hoping Christmas will be better than Thanksgiving.
A Gemma is forever.
