So about Russia and homosexuals

[Roeki]

Did this thread happen because someone was cranky about being dumped, lol?

OFC you had a shitty relationship OP....have you ever listened to yourself? 

Its complicated. She had a bf years ago. Eventually she broke up, but i still had sex with her even if she was in a relatonship since i didnt have a GF before so i just didnt care that much because i liked her. Well i dont wanna talk too much about it but it starts like this, she breaks up with me due to lojality or breaks contact atleast.. years later get together, break up, get together, break up...

I was basically one doing it because i was so confused. Now i am not giving the full story because its so awkward to explain, but i think i kinda broke her hearth the first time atleast, even if i didnt mean too... or basically i when she contacted and wanted to be friends again i didnt feel like talking to her at some point because i assume she was with that guy so i assumed it was better to wait, so i talked to one of her friends... and yeah she got really sad... and it took years before i asked her again. Though not long after it she broke up with the guy she was with.

The only problem is i also was somewhat on omegle too much "aka being a perv somewhat", i also was blackmailed by some morrocan guy (which yeah is funny now i wont lie ) but when it happend i really wish to end or kill myself, so i sought comfort in religion so i read the bible, lord of the rings, like mostly much literature.. i got btw obese from doing it... though i have gotten in shape years later thankfully my parents kicked me out due to years of depression and job hunting because i didnt like to be exploting welfare money. But then again, exploiting your parents isnt that much better. In either case i in the end had idle curisoity of reading more books about life meanings. And more or less. Well lets say i snapped out of it from that wimpy attitude of listening to grunge music and selfpity and eventually just learned that i did a mistake, it happend and thats what it is.Nothing can change it, and i just got to beat it and do something productive. Though i do some meaningless things like chatting and forums.... but basically i try to go back to the basics of having a life outside of it lol. Oh yeah... i also was a huge jerk because i was really mean to one of her transsexual friend, politics in 2015 or 2016 or something... so thats one thing i regret. But its not like i can change it. It just ended right there all contact in general... which is ok in a way. I mean i did it afterall.

In either case. A long boring lifestory.