Will you start mocking your religion? That's up to you.
I was raised very religious, and it was during Easter services that I had the strong sense of "this is all ridiculous and I simply can't believe it". There is a grieving period to the loss of faith that has been with you all of your life. It is natural to have a few moments of doubt. Usually, reading through the Bible without the "god wrote this for ME" rose-colored glasses on will help erase that doubt and will give you a lot more moments of "wtf is this crap and why did I just accept this without question, wow".
If you really hear God's voice telling you to come back, record it, document it, and prove it. You'll be very rich very quickly.
Have you ever wondered about the millions of people who "believe god is with us" and "believe god told me to do ___" and never, ever can say "I know god is here and I can prove it"?
My sexuality conflicts with my pentecostal upbringing as well. I'm very grateful for it, but it caused my parents to disown me in 1988. I hope you fare better.
What to do? Read the bible. Set up your own self-study. There are lots of science and atheist books out there. There are lots of good videos on YouTube. Don't stress, just go with it.
I was raised very religious, and it was during Easter services that I had the strong sense of "this is all ridiculous and I simply can't believe it". There is a grieving period to the loss of faith that has been with you all of your life. It is natural to have a few moments of doubt. Usually, reading through the Bible without the "god wrote this for ME" rose-colored glasses on will help erase that doubt and will give you a lot more moments of "wtf is this crap and why did I just accept this without question, wow".
If you really hear God's voice telling you to come back, record it, document it, and prove it. You'll be very rich very quickly.
Have you ever wondered about the millions of people who "believe god is with us" and "believe god told me to do ___" and never, ever can say "I know god is here and I can prove it"?
My sexuality conflicts with my pentecostal upbringing as well. I'm very grateful for it, but it caused my parents to disown me in 1988. I hope you fare better.
What to do? Read the bible. Set up your own self-study. There are lots of science and atheist books out there. There are lots of good videos on YouTube. Don't stress, just go with it.
"The family that prays together...is brainwashing their children."- Albert Einstein
