RE: Hello, and what should I do?
October 6, 2017 at 12:46 pm
(This post was last modified: October 6, 2017 at 12:53 pm by Aegon.)
I feel like I am not in the position of giving you specific advice since I never had such an internal conflict about Abrahamic religion; I was raised Catholic, realized none of it made any sense to me, and stopped believing in God. But something I can tell you is that you do not need Christianity or faith in God in order to be happy, fulfilled, or meditate. Atheism does not automatically mean nihilism. Hell, it's certainly possible to be an atheist (not believe in God) but still follow the philosophy of Jesus and the positive teachings that come from the New Testament. Religions and faiths are just social constructs and we've been taught that you're either this or that, Christian or Atheist, Muslim or Atheist, when in reality you can mix beliefs, you may put into practice the philosophy of faith without the faith in a higher deity. The most important love you can receive will always be from yourself, not God.
For example I try to apply Taoist teachings to my life*. I would still refer to myself as an atheist if pressured. But it has helped me through quite a bit and guides my general way of thinking, and I am much happier because of it.
Mileage may vary, of course. Find out what works for you. If it ends up being Christianity, in its totality, then embrace it and make it yours.
*A paradox, actually. If you try to be Taoist you've already failed.
For example I try to apply Taoist teachings to my life*. I would still refer to myself as an atheist if pressured. But it has helped me through quite a bit and guides my general way of thinking, and I am much happier because of it.

*A paradox, actually. If you try to be Taoist you've already failed.
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