Still a Christian - ask me questions/tell me about yourselves

[speedyj1992]

Those next four years were lonely and hard, especially as I worked to switch custody to live with my dad permanently. My mind started to get more entranced with what I saw in the universe, the beauty that I didn't (and still don't) think could be at all accidental. Something about me was still convinced that there was truth in the Bible, even if I wasn't at the point where I was ready to accept the whole thing as truth. So, at 19, I started attending a Christian church, and my life has been transformed for the better.

It doesn't matter what form of universe you live in, depending on your outlook, you are bound to see it as beautiful because in a vast world like our universe, you will see a lot of things that you will subjectively find beautiful (or be evolutionarily conditioned to view as beautiful). This perception of beauty does not logically lead to the conclusion that God must exist.

"Evolutionarily conditioned to view as beautiful" - that really stands out me. It sounds a lot like what you're saying (and please tell me if I'm wrong) has an element of design, or at least manipulation that caters to our sense of beauty. Do you consider yourself to be an atheist?

And regarding the perception of beauty not logically leading to the conclusion of God - that's going to get a lot of potentially different answers depending on who you ask. My take is simply that the universe is too beautiful to have been formed completely by itself, even given the premise of billions of years for things to randomly happen. To elaborate on my logic here, I think of it as being impossible to form something beautiful completely by accident from nothing, and an impossible event is impossible no matter how many times you try it (i.e. you will not be able to lift a car completely on your own, no machinery or anything, no matter how many times you try it because your muscles just aren't strong enough).