Does it take courage or cowardice to commit suicide?

[Neo-Scholastic]

Wow, had no idea you went through this sort of thing. I'm sorry.

It's a hidden illlness...until it isn't.

That's not everyone's experience of suicide or depression. The chemicals or lack thereof do what they will and people experience it based on a number of factors. Depression is feeling too much to function for me. Every single solitary thing becomes horribly difficult because I don't want to feel anything. I know that it's numbness for others. Maybe it's because I have rampant anxiety that causes occasional depression

I didn't mean to suggest that everyone's experience is identical because I completely agree with you - depression isn't just one thing and it is often accompanied by other problems like anxiety. David Foster Wallace had both. Many people thought that he wore a bandanna as a kind of GenX hipster statement, but really he was just hiding the fact that his forehead was sweating from anxiety.