Eat, chew, swallow, repeat.

[The Grand Nudger]

You can swear all day long..but you're the nutter with heterodox beliefs, sniping from the outside.  It's helpful to keep that in mind. 

Don't you see; that your own beliefs and own culture and your own choices, are producing more and more damaged people, that you call "nutters"?
There's even a scientific theory called "The Butterfly Effect", speaking about how tiny actions alter the courses and scenarios we see:

So, no, then.  That sort of preseince and self awareness just hasn't happened for you yet.  Still too busy blaming the great satan.  

I'm always an outsider.

Meh, may as well embrace it and acknowledge, to yourself at least...that the effects of islam and islamism disgust you.  I think that if you asked around...you'd find many of our previously believing atheist buddies here on AF went through a similar phase where they thought that everyone was doing religion x wrong..but weren't quite ready to let go of it yet.

This is just me sharing my opinion, here...but you seem like a person reduced to two options by your disposition and what you see before you. Radicalization, or rejection. You'll have to find some way to address the discomfort the subject clearly produces in you, by reference to your constant posts on the matter.