Now I am in love with life

[Erinome]

My mother was the sixth and youngest child of devout Catholics. She attended Catholic school, and had me at age 16. She was kicked out after she gave me up to Catholic Charities, and then got me back. Despite that, I was raised in a devout Roman Catholic home. I suffered abuse at the hands of my zealot stepfather for questioning things, and received every sacrament that one can receive as female child. There was a time in my life wherein I did believe in God and absolutely loved Jesus, Mary, and the saints. When I was a teen, and my mother divorced the madman, I was allowed to think for myself. After a short-lived stint as a Hindu, with a brief layover as a Buddhist, I saw The Cosmos series with Carl Sagan, and my mind completely opened up to new and fascinating possibilities. By the time I was 21, I was sure there was nothing else I could be but an atheist. I actually mourned for a while after my logic swallowed up my beliefs, but that didn't last very long. I am currently in school to studying astrophysics, and theoretical physics, and find great fulfillment in the knowledge of the vastness of time and space and improbability of life as a member of the human species, here on the planet earth.