Deidre's Ramblings
May 12, 2018 at 12:35 am
(This post was last modified: May 12, 2018 at 12:39 am by *Deidre*.)
Saturday, May 12
So, I probably will be a bit all over the place with this journal, sharing bits and pieces of my life, and possibly asking for advice from time to time. Maybe sharing pics or recipes. Reflections, sometimes spiritual, sometimes not. You never know.
I've been on a roughly five year journey from faith to atheism to agnosticism to Buddhism to faith again, and this time, it feels different. I think I'm tired of telling the story to be honest. lol But, I sometimes still share it when asked, because I want people to know, that if you struggle with faith and/or leaving faith behind, you're not alone. For some, there's no struggle, but for others, for various reasons...there can be. It doesn't make you less than, inferior or strange. It just means we're all different.
Sometimes, we feel that our lives are so small, that we simply can't touch another. Can't affect another. But, we can. I've learned so much from this site, and even though I may take breaks on occasion, I always come back.
If I've come back to believing in God, why do I return here? Because this site means something. Not only to atheists. It has helped me to understand atheism. To understand myself. And, I've made some e-friends along the way.
When you grow up in faith, indoctrinated for want of a better word, you don't really question anything outside of that faith. Or you might think you do, but you really don't. You might not be equipped to, or perhaps fear to question when doubt sets in. But, not until I identified as an atheist, did I understand atheists. Did I question what my religion was even telling me. It's been a good thing for me, even though, moments can be dark when you're trying to process your place in the world, when you depart from belief.
Sometimes, we wish we could go back and change something, when we were at our most uncomfortable level. We don't like to feel the struggle, or feel pain. Who does? But, that discomfort might be necessary to push you forward. To shape you. To make you ...better. I want to believe that it all did.
Okay, I'm channeling Maya Angelou, now
Until next time.......
**A huge thank you to Tiberius and staff , who created this subforum. Pretty cool that AF has a suggestion section for its members, that is taken seriously. I appreciate the consideration, so thank you!**
So, I probably will be a bit all over the place with this journal, sharing bits and pieces of my life, and possibly asking for advice from time to time. Maybe sharing pics or recipes. Reflections, sometimes spiritual, sometimes not. You never know.
I've been on a roughly five year journey from faith to atheism to agnosticism to Buddhism to faith again, and this time, it feels different. I think I'm tired of telling the story to be honest. lol But, I sometimes still share it when asked, because I want people to know, that if you struggle with faith and/or leaving faith behind, you're not alone. For some, there's no struggle, but for others, for various reasons...there can be. It doesn't make you less than, inferior or strange. It just means we're all different.
Sometimes, we feel that our lives are so small, that we simply can't touch another. Can't affect another. But, we can. I've learned so much from this site, and even though I may take breaks on occasion, I always come back.
If I've come back to believing in God, why do I return here? Because this site means something. Not only to atheists. It has helped me to understand atheism. To understand myself. And, I've made some e-friends along the way.
When you grow up in faith, indoctrinated for want of a better word, you don't really question anything outside of that faith. Or you might think you do, but you really don't. You might not be equipped to, or perhaps fear to question when doubt sets in. But, not until I identified as an atheist, did I understand atheists. Did I question what my religion was even telling me. It's been a good thing for me, even though, moments can be dark when you're trying to process your place in the world, when you depart from belief.
Sometimes, we wish we could go back and change something, when we were at our most uncomfortable level. We don't like to feel the struggle, or feel pain. Who does? But, that discomfort might be necessary to push you forward. To shape you. To make you ...better. I want to believe that it all did.
Okay, I'm channeling Maya Angelou, now
Until next time.......
**A huge thank you to Tiberius and staff , who created this subforum. Pretty cool that AF has a suggestion section for its members, that is taken seriously. I appreciate the consideration, so thank you!**
