This may not be the right place for it, but the more I think about it, the more I wonder if I'm on the Aspergers spectrum. A long time friend, who used to babysit me when I was a kid, and who has a son who is Aspergers is convinced I am... just 'high functioning', though that could just be bias. And I have a lot of friends who are and feel I have a lot in common with some of them, just not to the same degree most of the time. Like obsessiveness, getting hung up on little details, social anxiety, awkwardness, and aloofness. Anyway the reason I'm writing this here is because of this football shirt... which feels like it kind of sums up this thing to me... the social aspect anyway; every time I've gone out so far wearing this thing I've felt very self-conscious; no-one else is wearing one and I feel very anxious every time I walk past someone who fits the stereotype of a football fan... worried they'll speak to me because I don't know how to respond in 'bloke-speak'
, cos I don't talk like that. I feel like Mrs Doyle in Father Ted reading "How to watch football for women"; "Go on... [turns page]... my son!"
Like someone said something to me today when I was wearing this, I didn't catch much cos I was just trying to avoid them at the time, but it felt hostile/mocking... but this time it could be my anxious bias in play... all I caught was "Saturday night" (which is when England is next playing)... so I started worrying if there was some etiquette I'm not getting about when I should wear it... whether I should only be wearing it on match days? and maybe that's why no-one else is wearing one. Anyway, all of that does fit in with what I've learnt about Aspergers, I think, so it would certainly explain a lot. Just felt the need to get that out there.

