Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

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CIJS: This is such a strange chapter in my life. I’ve learnt more in the last 6 months than I’ve learnt all my life, and much of what I’ve learnt has shown me I’ve been wrong about so many things. I now find myself agreeing with people I previously argued against. It’s often not for the same reasons that I come to their conclusion, which is even more odd. I’ve arrived using a different path.

Some issues I thought were settled now have serious doubt. I realise how my strengths were leveraged against me. Although this continues to be a very distressing period, which isolates me in many ways, I am proud of myself that I took the opportunities that I did. It was mostly luck that these opportunities came along, but another person could have easily turned them down.

Deciding what to do is harder than it’s ever been before. The emporer has no clothes on, but what can I do? It’s only getting worse. I feel like this will be our last chance.

Sorry you feel the time is distressing. Realizing some truth though or hw you were being manipulated shouldn't be isolating though. Sounds like you need a drinking buddy to hang out with and celebrate. If you find decisions hard to make, I like to break mine up into the smallest doable parts and micro-task the hell out of that shit. GL man, whatever the problems may be.

Thank you