I made posts in the past in which I complained about him and questioned my love for him. It seems to me that as time goes by I become more and more convinced that I don't love him. He does love me, but I don't feel the same. He did very nice things for me in the past, but I feel drained from the bad ones. If after an entire childhood I end up not loving him, what's the point of even trying to have a relationship with him? Even if he does change his ways, how can I see him as "my father"? During this stage in life you don't need your parents as much and it would be ridiculous for an adult to search for a parent or parental figure. Why try to "be his kid" now?
"By simple common sense I don't believe in God, in none"
Charlie Chaplin
Charlie Chaplin
