I never said it had anything to do with me, specifically. Actually, you constantly display this very same type of thinking on a variety of subjects. Black & white thinking is a common cognitive distortion, and one you're guilty of quite often. So yeah, it's not me, it's you. Sorry, sweetie.
If you're frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth.