Really, you want to kill yourself because you were bad in school and don't have a steady job? That is a bad reason to kill yourself. I mean I did once watch a documentary in which they said how students in Japan kill themselves if they have low grades in school.
But the good reason to kill yourself would be if you are very ill and in constant pain which is unbearable to live with.
Maybe you should just get serious, and if you need to take some night school, and get a serious job - if that would make you happy. If not, you can live like those people in "Nomadland" movie, where you travel around the country, have a job here and there just to get some cash in order to travel more, and so on.
Maybe the reason why people feel bad about themselves is because they take TV shows and especially sitcoms too seriously. Like when you start with I've lived a very uneventful life - what does that even mean? What, if your life wasn't like the TV show "Friends" it was uneventful? Because many people seem to be burdened to think that your 20s to mid-30s should be like "Friends" and then like "Everybody Loves Raymon", but those are just sitcoms, made for people to laugh for 20 minutes and then move on.
I mean you say "you stole from your school" - big fucking deal. Programmer John Carmack was arrested when he was 14 trying to steal Apple II computers from his school and then grew up to make "Doom". Those were the days when children wanted computers which were still too expensive for kids to have.
Or I'll tell you even the worst story: one kid in my class in school took a gradingbook and wrote himself an A grade in biology class because he wanted to be a doctor, and he was caught, but at the end of the year the teacher took that grade for granted, added it to the rest of the grades and gave him A in biology, and now he's a medical doctor - and do you think he regrets what he did? Fuck no, he's glad he did it.
But the good reason to kill yourself would be if you are very ill and in constant pain which is unbearable to live with.
Maybe you should just get serious, and if you need to take some night school, and get a serious job - if that would make you happy. If not, you can live like those people in "Nomadland" movie, where you travel around the country, have a job here and there just to get some cash in order to travel more, and so on.
Maybe the reason why people feel bad about themselves is because they take TV shows and especially sitcoms too seriously. Like when you start with I've lived a very uneventful life - what does that even mean? What, if your life wasn't like the TV show "Friends" it was uneventful? Because many people seem to be burdened to think that your 20s to mid-30s should be like "Friends" and then like "Everybody Loves Raymon", but those are just sitcoms, made for people to laugh for 20 minutes and then move on.
I mean you say "you stole from your school" - big fucking deal. Programmer John Carmack was arrested when he was 14 trying to steal Apple II computers from his school and then grew up to make "Doom". Those were the days when children wanted computers which were still too expensive for kids to have.
Or I'll tell you even the worst story: one kid in my class in school took a gradingbook and wrote himself an A grade in biology class because he wanted to be a doctor, and he was caught, but at the end of the year the teacher took that grade for granted, added it to the rest of the grades and gave him A in biology, and now he's a medical doctor - and do you think he regrets what he did? Fuck no, he's glad he did it.
teachings of the Bible are so muddled and self-contradictory that it was possible for Christians to happily burn heretics alive for five long centuries. It was even possible for the most venerated patriarchs of the Church, like St. Augustine and St. Thomas Aquinas, to conclude that heretics should be tortured (Augustine) or killed outright (Aquinas). Martin Luther and John Calvin advocated the wholesale murder of heretics, apostates, Jews, and witches. - Sam Harris, "Letter To A Christian Nation"
