For those who have never spent years in a religious fog you might not know what it's like to wake up from that fog. Just today I posted this to a friend of mine who shucked his fundamentalism a little while ago (code name waking up from the matrix). I'm not an emotional person so this is as mushy as it gets.
well I'm still in a fog. Sometimes my mind drifts away to thoughts on god and I think that this will all blow over soon. I will go back to what has always been. Then I wake up.
Oddly the more the fog lifts the happier I become. I don't have to hate anyone but myself or blame anyone but myself for anything that has happened in my life. My life is my own. The problem with a god is that if he pisses you off you can't throttle him and you can't make him change or understand your point of view because, of course he doesn't exist. you just have to accept some fucking bullshit purpose that you will never know the reason for. Knowing that a god doesn't exist is an odd feeling old habits die hard but the more it dies the happier I feel. Yeah life!
well I'm still in a fog. Sometimes my mind drifts away to thoughts on god and I think that this will all blow over soon. I will go back to what has always been. Then I wake up.
Oddly the more the fog lifts the happier I become. I don't have to hate anyone but myself or blame anyone but myself for anything that has happened in my life. My life is my own. The problem with a god is that if he pisses you off you can't throttle him and you can't make him change or understand your point of view because, of course he doesn't exist. you just have to accept some fucking bullshit purpose that you will never know the reason for. Knowing that a god doesn't exist is an odd feeling old habits die hard but the more it dies the happier I feel. Yeah life!
I have studied the Bible and the theology behind Christianity for many years. I have been to many churches. I have walked the depth and the breadth of the religion and, as a result of this, I have a lot of bullshit to scrape off the bottom of my shoes. ~Ziploc Surprise
