(November 9, 2011 at 2:14 am)Voltair Wrote: Right there with you I recently chucked the good ol Godbear out the window too... It is hard for me to not think/argue against the idea every day >.<.
It will help when I am no longer at a religious school and I think I will be getting happier soon. How long have you quit the "kool aid"? oh and yeah life!
I've been a fundie for 30 years. The kool aid runs deep in my veins. My deconversion has taken years and a lot of study. I can say that I officially quit the kool aid a few weeks ago. Sooner or later you've just got to face the truth.
It's odd, when I was a fundie the common belief was that sometime who left the faith was supposed to be deluded,, angry, bitter, sad, or just rebellious. While I admit the fundamentalist vortex (resembling something like a flushing toilet) can be demeaning, and when friends and family back away from you this can be upsetting, but if they didn't do this then that stress would be eliminated -problem solved.
It's odd. Technically i'm a rebellious sinner because I no longer "follow god" (follow the so called leadings of a so called being). From 30 years of fundieism I can safetly say that the majority of "following god" involves doing what your pastor/religious leader says you ought to do. A pastor who knows as little about this "god" as you do. So technically both a pastor and I are rebellious sinners because we are on equal terms. How can you truthfully follow what you don't truthfully know? I digress. I love ironies. I find them to be very funny, and I have been finding a lot of them lately (go figure, lol).
To religion I remove my belt and take a bow....in the other direction. The sun has set on my religion and the moon has risen.
I have studied the Bible and the theology behind Christianity for many years. I have been to many churches. I have walked the depth and the breadth of the religion and, as a result of this, I have a lot of bullshit to scrape off the bottom of my shoes. ~Ziploc Surprise
