My own grandad died last year, and my other grandad died in 2017. He died a very painful death.
I am sorry you feel isolated from your family.....not for religous reasons, I was actually intensly religious at the time, but I did feel very isolated in 2017. I was only 11, and I felt very confused and overwhelmed by everyone. My whole family was very upset writing the eulogy etc, and there was a lot of stress. I felt like I didn't have enough grief compared to what they were feeling, and although they respected my beliefs, they didn't know the half of all the inner pain and confusion I was going thru in my soul. I was really repressing myself and my sexuality and I was also being exposed to a lot of terrible stuff online.
Now even though I still consider myself a Christian I think I am a Gnostic and I am honestly really sorry about your family. What you and are experincing I believe is worthwhile and it will get easier
I am sorry you feel isolated from your family.....not for religous reasons, I was actually intensly religious at the time, but I did feel very isolated in 2017. I was only 11, and I felt very confused and overwhelmed by everyone. My whole family was very upset writing the eulogy etc, and there was a lot of stress. I felt like I didn't have enough grief compared to what they were feeling, and although they respected my beliefs, they didn't know the half of all the inner pain and confusion I was going thru in my soul. I was really repressing myself and my sexuality and I was also being exposed to a lot of terrible stuff online.
Now even though I still consider myself a Christian I think I am a Gnostic and I am honestly really sorry about your family. What you and are experincing I believe is worthwhile and it will get easier
