Is love real?

[Ahriman]

My psychiatrist wants me to attend therapy. I haven't done that.

Then I'd conclude that you're lacking insight into your mental health and at least partially noncompliant. Maybe you need therapy maybe you don't. What reason does the psychiatrist give for you needing therapy? Plus your resistance to therapy and change may be an indication that you need therapy but ultimately it would be a waste of time.

Are you taking medication as prescribed as part of your treatment?

Yeah I am. I'm pretty sure I'm only being told to seek therapy because she wants me to "get with the program" and do what everyone else is doing.