Religion indoctrinates fear of judgment for non-belief. It fades over time.
I felt a sense of relief when I gave up pretending to believe. If you don't feel the same, perhaps you still have some beliefs?
If you still find the personal interactions of church worthwhile, find a church that suits your needs (or other organization). I'm a Unitarian Universalist. It definitely isn't for everyone, but it is good for me. I enjoy the social nature of church, and the time to ponder big questions. I find that things like thankfulness, self-improvement, community, and other aspects of church are useful to me.
But fear of judgment - nope. Forgiveness? Perhaps, but that is about forgiving myself and trying to do better, not getting a magical pass from a deity.
I felt a sense of relief when I gave up pretending to believe. If you don't feel the same, perhaps you still have some beliefs?
If you still find the personal interactions of church worthwhile, find a church that suits your needs (or other organization). I'm a Unitarian Universalist. It definitely isn't for everyone, but it is good for me. I enjoy the social nature of church, and the time to ponder big questions. I find that things like thankfulness, self-improvement, community, and other aspects of church are useful to me.
But fear of judgment - nope. Forgiveness? Perhaps, but that is about forgiving myself and trying to do better, not getting a magical pass from a deity.
