This whole 'god is fucking me over' thing is becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy. You believe god is fucking you over, so you look for any perceived slight in your life as proof. If god existed, I seriously doubt he/she/it would be screwing with your video games. As it has been said to you before, you need to drop this line of thinking and just relax. I don't think you can see how your train of thought is just making things worse for you, but I think it would really help you to stop obsessing over things.
Also, don't forget to getting real help from real professionals.
Also, don't forget to getting real help from real professionals.
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell
