Atheist and ex-gay?

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I wouldn't ask. If someone wants me to know, they will tell me. Just don't expect me to be surprised.

I only ever surprised like one girl when I told her- surprisingly a lesbian herself (and to be honest, nobody could tell she was one unless she said anything). She actually thought I was lying when I told her I was gay. Made me feel strangely good. And the rest of anybody else who I told and said "Yeah, I figured" kinda made me feel like crap. =\

It is a bit obnoxious when people ask if I am. Almost anyone who has asked, I initially lied and said I wasn't. I don't get what makes them think it's their business or right to know. I never asked anyone if they were gay.

Also, a lot of people are homophobic, specifically the ones I happen to befriend that I lie to. -.- Religious upbringings. I can't change them. Or people just don't like gay men (like me in a way, except when they do it, they aren't self-loathing).

I've always just been to sensitive to others' opinions I guess. I always wanted people to like me. Nobody ever did. It's getting gradually worse as I get older, people who used to like me no longer do, etc.