Terrified into Atheism

[JosephBowie]

My conversion sort of came in 2 separate parts.

I started off completely Christian. Everyone on my mother's side of the family led me into it (My parents split when I was a kid, and mom got custody.) They kept me that way for a good long time. Every night, all of us would gather around and do Christian stuff. Rosaries and bible-reading and whatever. I don't really remember. It was a pretty long time ago.

Anyway, we eventually got the Book of Revelation. I was 7 then, and it scared the ever loving shit out of me. So I abandoned the Christian belief, in secret of course, because I simply became unable to love a God that was capable of all that. I bounced from one belief system to another until I eventually found Atheism. At first, I only really stuck with it because there wasn't a hell to be afraid of.

After a while, science and evolution and all that just started making more sense than everything I was fed as a child. Now, I can no longer understand how I managed to believe the whole "God" thing.

Science just made more sense. It was literally the only one to provide concrete proof of its findings.

"God exists because he does. He has to. There's no way he doesn't."

That's the argument I always get, and it doesn't work for me. Atheism uses logic; something I am very much in love with.

Of course, I'm not out yet. The only other Atheists I'm related to are my cousin/best friend (whom I converted) and my dad. As a 16 year-old, I'm not quite ready to face being shunned and possibly disowned. Worse yet, they may cram Christianity down my throat in a horrid attempt at re-conversion.