So - you took apologetics to mean apologising for your purported faith, I pointed out that this is inaccurate, yet you're the one that gets it and I don't? I see. And if the rest of your diatribe is directed at me, at least pay me the courtesy of filling me in as to what I wrote that prompted it. I've read my words probably a dozen times now and I still can't see anything even similar to what you appear to have read there.
At the age of five, Skagra decided emphatically that God did not exist. This revelation tends to make most people in the universe who have it react in one of two ways - with relief or with despair. Only Skagra responded to it by thinking, 'Wait a second. That means there's a situation vacant.'