You do realize that a bad experience with two specific psychoactive drugs is not a good reason to swear off them all forever, don't you? Whether you want to take meds or not is completely your choice, but with the complexities of the brain and our lack of understanding the actual mechanisms through which these medicines provide help, a person must try different medicines, sometimes several of them, before he/she will find the ones that work best for him/her.
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell