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March 25, 2013 at 9:04 am
(This post was last modified: March 25, 2013 at 9:04 am by Endo.)
I'm 18 years old. I was born into a Christian family, and I accepted Christ when I was in kindergarten. I discovered porn when I was 12, and for the past 6 years, I've been struggling with trying to be a good Christian and getting away from it, but recently, I gave up trying. I just went with the flow, did what I wanted to do. A few days ago, a member on another forum sent me a PM about a message defending Christianity and Christians (Are you people okay with Xian? It's much easier to type) from members who had been scarred by the Church and saw all Xians as homophobic, insensitive radical conversionists. I said that most Xians aren't that way, but I only know Californians. Personally, I have homosexual friends, and if they want to know about my faith, I'll tell them, but only if they ask, and then I'll talk to them about homosexuality, and how I think it's wrong, but if you've rejected Christ, then it really doesn't matter. So this guy and I chatted for a few more posts, and I started researching deliberate sin and whatnot, and 2 days ago, I decided to reboot my faith. And it went well at first, I deleted all my porn, returned a few items that I'd kept long enough that one could consider them stolen, prayed a few times, etc.. Then late last night, I started reading about contradictions in the Bible, what the Bible really says about Heaven/Hell, various arguments about the truthfulness of Pauline Christianity, etc.. Now, I'm confused and tired. I don't want to give up Jesus and risk "eternal damnation" as some interpret hell, but "destruction of your immortal soul" isn't as bad. I'd rather be really dead than tortured. But I also don't trust the Bible anymore, and I don't trust my religion anymore. I WANT sin.
Now that the backstory's over, let me express what I wish to learn from this forum. Personally, I don't see evolution as the answer. There's too much lack of evidence for me to believe it (and I know what you're thinking: "There's a lack of evidence for Christianity, you noob!"). It seems a lot more likely to me that someone/something caused the universe's existence. Unless there's a fourth option to the big three: Creationism, ID, Evolution. Please help me.
Now that the backstory's over, let me express what I wish to learn from this forum. Personally, I don't see evolution as the answer. There's too much lack of evidence for me to believe it (and I know what you're thinking: "There's a lack of evidence for Christianity, you noob!"). It seems a lot more likely to me that someone/something caused the universe's existence. Unless there's a fourth option to the big three: Creationism, ID, Evolution. Please help me.
