Quote:Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: Do you have children, FNM? I struggle with the OP's question precisely because part of who I have become is the father of my son. Could I risk that?
If I changed my past, it would be the events that happened in my early childhood which still reflect upon my character today. I have these "issues" that I've had to work on for years and no amount of meditation has been able to provide closure to the degree that I feel I need. Regardless, I have two kids. I love them madly. I think that I have them in part to those experiences, because:
-what happened, happened.
-I became afraid of the world, low self esteem, insecure, angry, etc.
-I closed myself up from the world into my own world of my written art.
-This lead me to cope.
-I developed love and compassion for those who suffered similar situations as I did.
-I decided to go move far away to help my uncle in Spain with a mission he had (I was naïve and thought that any type of help, related or not, was noble and, therefore, good). During my wait to leave, I moved close to my parents to spend some time with them. I was going through a phase of struggle with self acceptance and a recent heart break.
-I met my husband.
-I had kids.
If I would have not experienced what I experienced... I would have probably taken advantage of my potential instead of diving into fears and stupid self pity, and I would have never returned home, having never met my husband, and never had these kids.
hock: I love my kids too much for that.
Pointing around: "Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you, I'm out!"
Half Baked
"Let the atheists come to me, and stop keeping them away, because the kingdom of heathens belongs to people like these." -Saint Bacon
Half Baked
"Let the atheists come to me, and stop keeping them away, because the kingdom of heathens belongs to people like these." -Saint Bacon
