Some may be that way, many including myself knows without doubts that the God of the Bible is real. Because you can't get your head around what we actually know is not our fault, nor is it our responsibility to make you change your mind. We received our knowledge of God from God, you can have the same knowledge, all that's needed is to ask God.
God loves those who believe and those who do not and the same goes for me, you have no choice in this matter. That puts the matter of total free will to rest.
