There is probably a zillion threads like this but I just wanted to talk because I don't have enyone to listen.
I am 100% alone, and that was ok for a while I don't mind faking, I could keep my mouth shut and get on with school, mission trips and youth group even though god was illogical to me, because that's what my friends did and it was fun.
Then BAM!!! I actually opend the bible and found out what I was preaching and pretending to believe and I couldn't do it anymore. I came out to some close friends stopped pretending and got on with life, but no one wants to talk with me about anything too do with god and the universe, I wouldn't even mind if they just argued with me!
I'm trapped in my own thoughts an I have no outlet, no one to talk no one to listen to me, everyone is silently opposed to me and I silently opposed to them.
If anyone has any advise its welcome
...please
I am 100% alone, and that was ok for a while I don't mind faking, I could keep my mouth shut and get on with school, mission trips and youth group even though god was illogical to me, because that's what my friends did and it was fun.
Then BAM!!! I actually opend the bible and found out what I was preaching and pretending to believe and I couldn't do it anymore. I came out to some close friends stopped pretending and got on with life, but no one wants to talk with me about anything too do with god and the universe, I wouldn't even mind if they just argued with me!
I'm trapped in my own thoughts an I have no outlet, no one to talk no one to listen to me, everyone is silently opposed to me and I silently opposed to them.
If anyone has any advise its welcome
...please
