JesusLover,
You have to make up your own mind. This is what I was talking about when I was saying I thought your parents/people around you are fostering your OCD. I don't mean they do this intentionally. When they fire off lists of reasons a mile long knowing that will overwhelm you. When they tell you things like "do you want to ruin your mother," or "you'll go to hell if you don't worship the right way," these things are abusive to a normal person, but to a person who suffers from OCD, (i can slightly empathize, I have OCPD) that is just nasty. And I don't think anyone in your life would do this on purpose (at least I hope not), but this is not good. Your parents have conditioned you through your OCD to rely on trusting people to tell you what/when/how to live that you are not equipped to make decisions on your own. It sounds this way, (again this is all conjecture from what you've shown us here) and it makes me sad.
Try just tackling little things one at a time. Read about evolution from both sides. Try not talking to anyone with a presupposition about it. No Christians, no atheists. Try to approach it as objectively as you can. Formulate your own opinions. Do not be a slave to your disorder.
You have to make up your own mind. This is what I was talking about when I was saying I thought your parents/people around you are fostering your OCD. I don't mean they do this intentionally. When they fire off lists of reasons a mile long knowing that will overwhelm you. When they tell you things like "do you want to ruin your mother," or "you'll go to hell if you don't worship the right way," these things are abusive to a normal person, but to a person who suffers from OCD, (i can slightly empathize, I have OCPD) that is just nasty. And I don't think anyone in your life would do this on purpose (at least I hope not), but this is not good. Your parents have conditioned you through your OCD to rely on trusting people to tell you what/when/how to live that you are not equipped to make decisions on your own. It sounds this way, (again this is all conjecture from what you've shown us here) and it makes me sad.
Try just tackling little things one at a time. Read about evolution from both sides. Try not talking to anyone with a presupposition about it. No Christians, no atheists. Try to approach it as objectively as you can. Formulate your own opinions. Do not be a slave to your disorder.
"There remain four irreducible objections to religious faith: that it wholly misrepresents the origins of man and the cosmos, that because of this original error it manages to combine the maximum servility with the maximum of solipsism, that it is both the result and the cause of dangerous sexual repression, and that it is ultimately grounded on wish-thinking." ~Christopher Hitchens, god is not Great
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