Come See Me, Dammit!

[Mothonis]

But suffice to say iam nothing good to look at...

I am sure that you are being way way too critical on yourself. Few of us meet Madison Avenue's requirements for beauty.
I obviously have no idea what you refer to as I have never seen you, but if you are like so many, being over weight is the number one self image destroyer despite it being today's most common BMI state.

I am overweight too as so many are, and although I do want to get back into shape, it bothers me less emotionally as I get older. Now though, I automatically see through the extra weight of other people, and see the other "beauty" characteristics much more.

Well I do agree with you,but i also recongnize that there are certain qualities that attractive people have even if their not models,theirs also science involved to some extent.I don't believe i have any of those features.

Iam very critical of myself when it comes to everything because as a Atheist,rationalist,skeptic ive learned I have to accept reality regardless of weather or not its good.

But your right i should hold up my head up high regardless of how i look.