(April 21, 2014 at 11:33 pm)SteelCurtain Wrote:(April 21, 2014 at 11:31 pm)Losty Wrote: I cannot count for you the number of nights I prayed these same types of prayers.
If god existed then he watched for 5 years and did nothing to save me. If he existed then he stood deaf to my desperate pleas as I was betrayed and brutalized by my own husband. If he existed then he supposedly approved a book that told me, as my husband had not committed adultery, it would be a sin against god for me to leave him. If god existed then it would have been his betrayal and abandonment that gave me the strength to finally save myself. There is nothing merciful or graceful or loving about watching people suffer whilst you have the means to save them.
But alas, there is no god. And that is the reason I can rest peacefully and fearlessly.
Losty, I am so sorry you had to go through this. I did not know this about you. I am so happy you are out of that situation, and can enjoy your life now! I hope nothing good happens ever for that sorry excuse of a man.
I've come a long way from that girl I once knew. I may be a little cynical at times now but ultimately I have learned that it's okay for me to be happy. I'm allowed to feel safe.
I hate when people talk about religion as freeing. If you just find god you can be saved. It's a lie they tell you and then they instill fear in you until you're trapped. It's wrong.
