can you give a newbie advice?

[Godlesspanther]

I was raised christian. I now believe though that God doesn't really exist, never did.

Where I live this belief is really not tolerated or accepted. In fact I have a church at BOTH ends of my road.

While I'm 95% certain there is no God 5% of me is still like what if there is and I die and go to Hell? But then if a God loved you so much why would he allow you to burn in hell.

Last night a friend looked at me like I had 2 heads because I told her I don't believe I will see God in Heaven because he doesn't exist. Her response was there is proof he walked the earth.

At that point her boyfriend stopped the conversation and changed the subject.

How do you prove or disprove that God existed?


What do you believe happens after you die?

I think all the great things about Heaven are lies. They are made up to help soothe the loss of a loved one that way you are comforted by the fact that they aren't gone forever.

I lost someone very close to me a few years ago in a very tragic way. That is what started my thoughts turning on this process.

First, if there was a god how could he allow such misery? God never gives you more than you can handle, that's bs.

Second, I got to thinking there is no way anyone will see her again in heaven I start really thinking that through and I just think that it is not possible period. That's like make believe, fantasy crap.

I also had a Hospice worker tell me, when religious patients die they go peacefully. Non religuous patients fight it and die scared. She said it doesn't matter what religion they are, any religion they all go peacefully and comforted by their beliefs.

Which makes me think, so every religion has different beliefs but they will all get you to Heaven because they are all correct? That can't be possible either.

I know I'm rambling and my thoughts are unorganized, sorry.

Any advice for me?

Not all religious constructs lead to heaven. Hinduism, for example, favors reincarnation. If you're an asshole Hindu then in your next life you will be a roach or a fly or if you are just a total asshole then you will be Jerry Falwell for the next three lives. All religions can't be right because they are saying different things. However, there is no violation of any principle of logic tin saying that they are all false.

The hospice worker is full of it. She is just "seeing" what she would like to be the case. Not what is really going on.

God -- if the thing exists outside of the imaginations of human beings -- obviously doesn't care what happens on this planet.