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RE: One Small Step For Life, One Giant Leap For Understanding
July 27, 2014 at 11:07 pm
(July 23, 2014 at 3:30 am)Quantum1Connect Wrote:
It would be fair to say that the last nine months of my life have been far from ordinary. It is also fair to say that my life has recently been far from extraordinary. At first this sounds like a ridiculously worded sentiment of utter nonsense but let me elaborate.
For me, ordinary was belief. Ordinary assumed Mormonism and insinuated absolute truth. Ordinary was prayer, scripture, and revelation. Ordinary was seminary five days a week, youth group or callings once to twice a week, and three to five hours of church on Sundays. My life has been very far from "ordinary," not that I am complaining.
Extraordinary, for my culture, meant blessings of unparalleled value. It meant miracles and visions, spiritual awakenings, and heavenly visits. It meant baptizing and claiming the administration of angels above. Extraordinary also meant a revelation via God's voice or Jesus' manifestation on a piece of toast. My life has not been extraordinary either, but that doesn't mean it was meant to be.
Instead, my life has been the opposite of ordinary, but not sinful or blasphemous either. I hadn't been lost to Satan, Hell, or any sort of sickly life style. I hadn't even found myself immoral, deceitful, or aggressive. My whole life I had assumed that would not have been the case of a life of un-ordinary value. My whole life I would have been sure that I would have been subjected to such negative ideas if I had decided to be un-ordinary.
But even then, I hate to use the word (or made up word) of "un-ordinary." I find it similar to the terms of "ex Mormon" or "post Mormon." These terms alone assume that there is something of loss or perhaps something worthy to be compared and contrasted. But the life of an emerging skeptic and rationalist does not need to be compared to such lifestyles, these lifestyles don't deserve to be compared and contrasted against a free thinker's ideas.
So this is why my life is neither ordinary, extraordinary, and not even un-ordinary but because of the pretentiousness of the word, I would not call it "original" either. My life is very unoriginal. It's not even an unlikely or rare occurrence. Human life has shown itself to be rather successful on this planet. But I would be the first one to call my life "genuine."
For the first time in my life, I'm scared beyond believable extant due to my ignorance, but I can admit that. I can now admit that I am often wrong, arrogant, and often time ignorant and a little naive, but this is no embarrassing idea. I can now, with confidence, say "I don't know" and be completely at peace with it. I can now look at my life and say "I know absolutely nothing about this world" but then with minor confidence conclude with "but I am sure I can learn." But perhaps the most powerful ability is to say "I've done my homework and after further review I believe you are wrong...or more precisely, I have no reason to believe that you are right."
You are on your way to a good place in life. Apply reason to your own actions if you haven't already started, question your own motives and biases, and be harder on yourself that you expect anyone else to be; but you've already found the first and most important key to the well-reasoned life, which is in my opinion making your peace with not always knowing.
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My life has been genuine, beyond a doubt, and nothing can replace the the joy that that idea creates. I can event admit that I sometimes find myself praying due to old habit. I can find myself questioning whether I can hang with disbelief. I can find myself wishing I could believe in some form of higher power. All these things I can admit, but I can also assess. I can work with these thoughts. Before it was "don't even ruminate with contrary thoughts" but now it is "challenge thoughts if they are persistently annoying."
Luckily, I have never found myself reverting back to the theist's schema. Contrary to popular American belief, atheism is something you are born with, theism has to be taught. It takes more energy to retain superstitious ideas and forcefully restrict critical thinking than it does to confront superstition and embrace critical thinking. So due to embracing my full nature, I have never once forsook my atheism and reverted to religious guilt.
Another thought that comes to mind is that the theist and I are not so different. The only difference is that one has come to terms with doubt and the other has refused to admit that there is anything to doubt. I for one am incredibly thankful that doubt is no longer sin, but an incredibly valuable asset.
On a closing note, the uncertainty of life and fear of illness and death is no more bearable with or without god, but knowing the facts of science and medicine makes things a little more understandable. As I was pulled into the operating room this past Friday and was prepared for surgery, I found my self singing all sort of songs.
My best wishes for a full and speedy recovery for you. Is your malady serious or minor, passing or chronic?
