I had and still have a militant type of father who drilled this down my throat since I was in the womb. I went to church every week since I was in 1st grade; now in my mid 20's. I always considered myself logical, but never really put that logic towards christianity. I remember hearing I'm praying for your soul because you're on your way to hell all the way back into middle school, even though I was a much better kid than most.
I always questioned certain aspects like slavery in the bible and why was homosexuality immoral, but always ignored it. Despite the Catholic beliefs, we always had paranormal/psychic shows on at our house, so that reinforced life after death beliefs for me. I had a few paranormal experiences in my life, which now I feel I can debunk. Skip ahead until a few years ago, I had visited the alleged miracle of fatima spot in Portugal because I had believed in it so much and actually had visited a few monasteries, and was completely ready to serve the Lord every minute of my waking life.
At this point I was probably praying 2 hours a day of idiotic rosary, prayers to saints, and a whole bunch of garbage and wondering why god wouldn't help me through my illnesses so I could answer his call. I was convinced I was being tested I guess. About 5 months ago I was pretty deep into my auto immune illness (Currently keeps me out of work, school, and my "calling") and decided to look up crucified saviors before Jesus and research religion, and overnight I became Non-religious. I've been researching and watching youtube videos of atheists' point of views ever since on a daily basis. 3 weeks ago I became an atheist!!!
I guess it was god's will that I don't serve him every day, and its his will I became an atheist. I can't tell you how much time I've given to my religion, and how much of a one-sided relationship that was, HOLY $&%#! I never had a real prayer answered, Shocker! At least I was open-minded. I now despise religion, and especially despise the indoctrination of helpless children. My father probably prays every catholic prayer imaginable and spends probably 4 structured hours a day ignoring his family because God is most important. Oh well, Thats life hahaha, Sorry not trying to complain at all, just trying to explain my crazy religious background. I empathize with everyone out there who was forced to believe this stuff as fact and almost not given a choice to decide. Thanks in advance for the welcome, and have a great day all!
I always questioned certain aspects like slavery in the bible and why was homosexuality immoral, but always ignored it. Despite the Catholic beliefs, we always had paranormal/psychic shows on at our house, so that reinforced life after death beliefs for me. I had a few paranormal experiences in my life, which now I feel I can debunk. Skip ahead until a few years ago, I had visited the alleged miracle of fatima spot in Portugal because I had believed in it so much and actually had visited a few monasteries, and was completely ready to serve the Lord every minute of my waking life.
At this point I was probably praying 2 hours a day of idiotic rosary, prayers to saints, and a whole bunch of garbage and wondering why god wouldn't help me through my illnesses so I could answer his call. I was convinced I was being tested I guess. About 5 months ago I was pretty deep into my auto immune illness (Currently keeps me out of work, school, and my "calling") and decided to look up crucified saviors before Jesus and research religion, and overnight I became Non-religious. I've been researching and watching youtube videos of atheists' point of views ever since on a daily basis. 3 weeks ago I became an atheist!!!
I guess it was god's will that I don't serve him every day, and its his will I became an atheist. I can't tell you how much time I've given to my religion, and how much of a one-sided relationship that was, HOLY $&%#! I never had a real prayer answered, Shocker! At least I was open-minded. I now despise religion, and especially despise the indoctrination of helpless children. My father probably prays every catholic prayer imaginable and spends probably 4 structured hours a day ignoring his family because God is most important. Oh well, Thats life hahaha, Sorry not trying to complain at all, just trying to explain my crazy religious background. I empathize with everyone out there who was forced to believe this stuff as fact and almost not given a choice to decide. Thanks in advance for the welcome, and have a great day all!
