I want to hear about the first time you doubted your religion? Your first ah-ha! moment, if you will.
Here's mine, it's kind of odd:
When I was little I used to play a thought game while I laid awake in bed. It's kind of hard to describe. I called it the ladder game. It involved turning my attention towards the formation of my thoughts, and then quickly turning my attention towards the commentary that was forming about the original stream of thoughts-the thoughts about my thoughts. This would then form new commentary on those thoughts and I tried to see how long I could keep it going before I lost it all and my attention collapsed to one thought stream. Kinda like those spinning plates. After doing that for a few years I got pretty good at it and I wa able to think my thoughts before they were formed into English. Which kinda freaked me out. I later learned this is actually a form of meditation.
On to the point, I realized that I wasn't born with the ability to speak English, but just speak. This lead me to research language and writing. So my first doubt, when I was younger was the idea that writing was a human invention that happened sort of late in our time on Earth. As amateur as it is, I inferred from that that the bible was man made. DOUBT!
Here's mine, it's kind of odd:
When I was little I used to play a thought game while I laid awake in bed. It's kind of hard to describe. I called it the ladder game. It involved turning my attention towards the formation of my thoughts, and then quickly turning my attention towards the commentary that was forming about the original stream of thoughts-the thoughts about my thoughts. This would then form new commentary on those thoughts and I tried to see how long I could keep it going before I lost it all and my attention collapsed to one thought stream. Kinda like those spinning plates. After doing that for a few years I got pretty good at it and I wa able to think my thoughts before they were formed into English. Which kinda freaked me out. I later learned this is actually a form of meditation.
On to the point, I realized that I wasn't born with the ability to speak English, but just speak. This lead me to research language and writing. So my first doubt, when I was younger was the idea that writing was a human invention that happened sort of late in our time on Earth. As amateur as it is, I inferred from that that the bible was man made. DOUBT!
