Well, I'm in the middle of a raging flare, but I'm on the newest of the new treatments, thanks to the zip code where I'm staying and the
top of the line hospitals I'm privileged to go to. I can't stay up here long though, the altitude is as much a hindrance on
my well being than anything. My heart races and my blood pressure soars, because my lungs are stressed to get enough oxygen. The doctors don't know
why. But I don't have time to find out, either. I have to go somewhere. My family really haven't been as welcoming as you would think!
All I get when I ask if I can stay in their Mercedes driving, perfectly empty nice Christian home storage basements for a month while I get treatments is:
Silence. That or "We'll pray for you." I don't think they know that that means little to me unless I actually see them praying for me rather than just saying they will. :/
Yet despite this, despite the fact that I lost our little love nest I'd been making by having to abandon everything in Kansas--and despite the fact that I am
now couch surfing my poor recovering, newly jobless mum-- and despite the fact that I can't even take care of myself right now.. Ryan is coming from a world away to take care of me in any way he can.
Love is beautiful, I can't speak enough about love..
Violet Lilly Blossom, who is indeed around and asks about the forum regularly-- has been there for me every step of the way. When I was afraid my fever wouldn't go back down from 103 after I'd gotten home from the ER via taxi, she was there. She has been instrumental in getting Ryan here as soon as possible, and for that I will always be grateful. And now she has been kind enough to offer us a comfy bed and a room in Texas, since no one here will take us in, even for a month. I do fear I may not be able to get my treatment there, as it's a brand new formula, and I am also afraid that the Red state of Texas may have the same level of death care that Kansas has, but with when your back is against the wall: what choice do you have?
At least I have someone to hold my hand
and the love of true friends.
Love is what keeps me alive.. and if it weren't for the love of those on this very site, I don't know where I'd be.
top of the line hospitals I'm privileged to go to. I can't stay up here long though, the altitude is as much a hindrance on
my well being than anything. My heart races and my blood pressure soars, because my lungs are stressed to get enough oxygen. The doctors don't know
why. But I don't have time to find out, either. I have to go somewhere. My family really haven't been as welcoming as you would think!
All I get when I ask if I can stay in their Mercedes driving, perfectly empty nice Christian home storage basements for a month while I get treatments is:
Silence. That or "We'll pray for you." I don't think they know that that means little to me unless I actually see them praying for me rather than just saying they will. :/
Yet despite this, despite the fact that I lost our little love nest I'd been making by having to abandon everything in Kansas--and despite the fact that I am
now couch surfing my poor recovering, newly jobless mum-- and despite the fact that I can't even take care of myself right now.. Ryan is coming from a world away to take care of me in any way he can.
Love is beautiful, I can't speak enough about love..
Violet Lilly Blossom, who is indeed around and asks about the forum regularly-- has been there for me every step of the way. When I was afraid my fever wouldn't go back down from 103 after I'd gotten home from the ER via taxi, she was there. She has been instrumental in getting Ryan here as soon as possible, and for that I will always be grateful. And now she has been kind enough to offer us a comfy bed and a room in Texas, since no one here will take us in, even for a month. I do fear I may not be able to get my treatment there, as it's a brand new formula, and I am also afraid that the Red state of Texas may have the same level of death care that Kansas has, but with when your back is against the wall: what choice do you have?
At least I have someone to hold my hand
and the love of true friends. Love is what keeps me alive.. and if it weren't for the love of those on this very site, I don't know where I'd be.
If I were to create self aware beings knowing fully what they would do in their lifetimes, I sure wouldn't create a HELL for the majority of them to live in infinitely! That's not Love, that's sadistic. Therefore a truly loving god does not exist!
Dead wrong. The actions of a finite being measured against an infinite one are infinitesimal and therefore merit infinitesimal punishment.
I say again: No exceptions. Punishment should be equal to the crime, not in excess of it. As soon as the punishment is greater than the crime, the punisher is in the wrong.
![[Image: tumblr_n1j4lmACk61qchtw3o1_500.gif]](https://66.media.tumblr.com/5fb74c6d16622fb3dbb358509c9aec03/tumblr_n1j4lmACk61qchtw3o1_500.gif)
Quote:The sin is against an infinite being (God) unforgiven infinitely, therefore the punishment is infinite.
Dead wrong. The actions of a finite being measured against an infinite one are infinitesimal and therefore merit infinitesimal punishment.
Quote:Some people deserve hell.
I say again: No exceptions. Punishment should be equal to the crime, not in excess of it. As soon as the punishment is greater than the crime, the punisher is in the wrong.
