You know what really grinds my gears?: The moaning thread.

[Losty]

Yesterday/today (whatever day it is/was) was just a weird horrible awful day. Started out with this confusing awful dream that should have come straight from the kind of horror movies that Losty refuses to watch. Then no ability to contact the one person who always saves me from my nightmares. Then my regular dosage of people who love to tell me all the reasons why I completely fail at life. Spent some hours pondering whether or not I need a new kind of meds or if I just need a new kind of family. Maybe a little bit of both could do me some good. Spent a decent amount of money that I honestly couldn't afford to spend. Technically broke a rule, but I think it was worth it. These are the kind of days that put me right back at where I was when everything was lost and I just wanted to give up. Maybe I never really left those days and this amazing little piece of happiness has been fooling me into thinking everything was changing this whole time. Maybe it's really a huge piece of happiness and I shouldn't let one bad day make me feel like things aren't changing for the better. I don't really know. Leli thought she would cheer me up by giving Miss P a haircut -_- thanks Leli, thank a lot. Top it all off with a seriously confusing mess at the end you know just to remind me that when I'm down, things can always get worse. It's almost 5:30 am and sleep evades me so I just keep lying here thinking. Thinking about the past and about the present and wondering how much of this is going to have a negative impact on this bright future I keep looking forward to. Sometimes thinking isn't such a great thing. I'm not really sure if any of this stuff grinds my gears. I mostly just felt like venting and I figured this was a good place to do just that. I just want to have a day where everything goes the way I want it to go. I think probably those days only exist in movies and fairy tales. Well, now that I've rambled on about it all, I've decided that complaining didn't really make me feel much better, but then I guess I knew it wouldn't. Still, sometimes it's nice to just let it all out.

Tl;dr - Losty had a really horrible day.