Subhanahu wa ta'ala

[robvalue]

Hello Hanif, welcome.

I'm very sorry to hear you are being treated so badly. The same problem exists in any religion that claims their god is all good, why do bad things happen? There has never, ever been a good reason given for this. If anyone had a good reason, they wouldn't have to scare people into being quiet and not asking questions.

You should be allowed to ask whatever you want, and figure things out for yourself. If something is true, it doesn't need to be forced onto people for them to accept it. Sadly it seems that where you live it isn't possible to be open about this with the people around you behaving this way.

I hope you can get some consolation by talking to people here who understand your situation. Sadly religion is used as a way to control people, and to reinforce beliefs people already have.