(December 14, 2014 at 7:19 am)Little lunch Wrote: The definitive moment that I made a decision to stop thinking about killing myself was the day a doctor told me that it was common for children to follow in their parents footsteps.
Right at that moment I remembered that a friend of mine had committed suicide on the 5th anniversary of her mother's suicide.
I didn't realise it was a common thing at the time.
Up until that point I'd thought that because of all the pain I'd caused my friends and family that we'd all be better off without me and I'd be finally doing something good.
It didn't take me long to realise that putting a gun to my head could be like putting a gun to my daughter's head in the long run.
I'm doing really really well at the moment.
But when I'm down I take strength from my desire for my daughter to have a happy future and somehow I just handle it.
Something else I'd like to say is that I feel like it gets easier as you get older.
At least for me it has. :-)
The problem is, Bipolar usually gets worse as you get older :/
