left voicemail for chief of police

[Jextin]

there is a certain cop that ive seen and he has said some horrible things to me - the first time he saw me was few months ago i said on fb i was going to end it all and the he came and the whole time was talking condescendingly towards me and telling me to grow a pair and man up and then took me to the hospital calling me a pussy the whole time there, and he was like "are u student here? show me your visa." (because i am indian, but not only was i born in the US but I was in the air force straight out of highschool and was discharged with PTSD)

I called the sergeant at the station and he totally dismissed the situation and didn't even apologize, so I just left a voicemail for the chief and im hoping he will at least call me back.

i know that a lot of you guys probably can't understand mental illness because lot of atheists have the whole "you gotta be held responsible" mindset, but nobody has any idea how hard i struggle every single day and I AM in therapy and medication but its still a DAILY battle, and to have it all minimized over my 1 outburst of the year just makes me want to cry nonstop and people like him are the reason i do want to kill myself because i realize not only do i not fit in this life and world, nobody cares about me since my parents passed on and i am 100% alone in this world and i am better off just ending it all.