Hello everyone (:
I'm a 19 year old female, raised as a Protestant although my family is originally Catholic (my grandmother was the first one to convert while her daughter and my dad "joined the movement" later on).
Anyway, I only started to fully "deconvert" about one and a half week ago on the day of my birthday. I hadn't read the bible in over a year and every single time I tried to I could only find flaw after flaw, as well as bigoted and repressive views e.g that woman are the "weaker vessel", that slavery is natural (I know people say it was appropriate for the culture at the time, but that if that god was real and perfect and loving shouldn't it be his duty to reshape culture itself and announce that slavery was not okay? Same goes for homosexuality. In the end people just say we can't understand god's will so why bother going down that rabbit hole?)
I have tons of questions and I need help to get away from the "PTSD" religion has brought down on me. Christianity has abused me to the point where it honestly feels like I have Stockholm's syndrome. I know this god isn't good for me in anyway - and the logic part of me knows he is not even real - but part of me just wants to return to him. And, of course, I'm scared of relapsing and making bad choices based on emotion and fear.
Either way, it truly is a pleasure to meet all of you
I'm a 19 year old female, raised as a Protestant although my family is originally Catholic (my grandmother was the first one to convert while her daughter and my dad "joined the movement" later on).
Anyway, I only started to fully "deconvert" about one and a half week ago on the day of my birthday. I hadn't read the bible in over a year and every single time I tried to I could only find flaw after flaw, as well as bigoted and repressive views e.g that woman are the "weaker vessel", that slavery is natural (I know people say it was appropriate for the culture at the time, but that if that god was real and perfect and loving shouldn't it be his duty to reshape culture itself and announce that slavery was not okay? Same goes for homosexuality. In the end people just say we can't understand god's will so why bother going down that rabbit hole?)
I have tons of questions and I need help to get away from the "PTSD" religion has brought down on me. Christianity has abused me to the point where it honestly feels like I have Stockholm's syndrome. I know this god isn't good for me in anyway - and the logic part of me knows he is not even real - but part of me just wants to return to him. And, of course, I'm scared of relapsing and making bad choices based on emotion and fear.
Either way, it truly is a pleasure to meet all of you
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