Thoughts on Atheism and Apologetics

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That's an amazing story.

Would you say that overall you feel better or worse now, than the nicer years of your faith?

I would say slightly better. Only slightly because I have not fully broke off the chains since I have not come out as a non-believer. I feel like my life has more meaning now. It had meaning then but the meaning was just to live for god, striving not to make mistakes, not to sin, not to lead others astray. It was meaningful, but it was bondage.

Now, the meaning is what I assign to it. Honestly, if I knew I was going to die tonight I would not spend it lamenting my past. I would spend it basking in the utter joy that I have found in "living" and knowing what a great privilege it has been to spend 37 years on this planet we call the blue dot, in a solar system, galaxy and universe beyond explanation. What an amazing experience.