[Serious] Rational reason for ending my life.

[zwanzig]

You only get one life. There is no "after." This is it. Once you're gone, there is no chance to change, to grow, to make amends. 

 You have that opportunity now. You are who you choose to be. Being a fuckup is not who you are, it is a collection of choices you've made. If making fuckup decisions bothers you, start today right now to turn it around. You're still alive with the chance to grow, to change, to learn, and to choose.