(November 28, 2016 at 2:01 am)Luckie Wrote: The elephant in the room
So.. Not to bring up unpleasant things nor do I owe any explanations, but I did say I was leaving for good and now I'm back again. It's confusing to me too, although I did miss you all so much I've quite enjoyed my homecoming! I left Riiighhhhhttt around the time I posted a very controversial reply to my husband in open AFSkype room during a very pivotal moment in our marriage! Too many people got too much information, with that, and not all of it was accurate I admit.
But what are we all, if not friends by now after all these years of forming side by side? Sometimes friends tend to get to know their friends more closely than acquaintances--and, by proxy, their dirty laundry as well!
For those of you who know what I'm talking about, yes I was on anesthetics and morphine for a reconfiguration of my innerds and I had a 6in incision among others, in my abdomen. Needless to say, it was not the best time to make life altering decisions. Yes, I regret those decisions, and no I didn't plan it, it just happened naturally on a progressive timeline of life sequences and unveilings. In short, I thought my husband was crazy and he thought the same about me; it was a very fucked up time in our marriage and we both did things we are both sorry for. Mainly we suffered from lack of proper communication! Funny to think about-- considering we lived together, but it happened. I saw zero chance of reconciliation in that situation--I believed wholeheartedly what i said. I regret shutting down communication completely, that was on me. But, looking back, I don't know if we could've or would've reconciled had we not separated. I do know that I wanted a separation, and that's my right to ask for. It's just that we were separated by an ocean instead of two separate residences. There wasn't really any alternative.
We are still together. Throughout and despite all of that, he still loves me and I still love him. We have some marital counseling to do, sure, and personal issues we are working on, but hey we have never been married before, you know? We have chosen to be there for each other as we pick ourselves back up from what had been, a failure on both our parts. Hard lessons were learned, and new lessons we are now learning, together.
That's really all I have to say other than sorry you all got wind of dirty laundry in your sails!
When people you like say they're going but then don't, you tend to me more happy than anything else. I'd like to declare a general amnesty for every witty and wonderful person who ever posted here, said they were leaving but then changed their mind. You Lucky (or is it Losty
) qualify for amnesty plus a welcome home parade.
