Welcome Sarah!
I don't have any of that experience, my upbringing was basically "faking it enough to get into heaven" Lutheran. Well, that isn't fair. We just weren't super churchers. It didn't take much to let go of it, as I never really believed. When I started actually addressing my beliefs it was very clear that I am an atheist. I just wanted to welcome you and give you support, it must be a very difficult situation. I hope things become easier for you and most of all that you are happy.
Kitty
I don't have any of that experience, my upbringing was basically "faking it enough to get into heaven" Lutheran. Well, that isn't fair. We just weren't super churchers. It didn't take much to let go of it, as I never really believed. When I started actually addressing my beliefs it was very clear that I am an atheist. I just wanted to welcome you and give you support, it must be a very difficult situation. I hope things become easier for you and most of all that you are happy.
Kitty