A person who needs help.....

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You're very welcome

Thanks for sharing your experiences. Maybe talking about it is helpful in itself. I don't know what I can say to help really. All I can say is you can take whatever parts of a religion are helpful to you, without having to throw yourself into it completely. For example, you can find parts of the bible comforting or wise, without having to also believe it's the word of God or whatever. You can see Jesus as being whatever you feel he is, without having to worship him. You're the master of your own destiny. I'm sure that whoever or whatever Jesus is or was, he would want you to be happy.