CIJS...
I wish you were dead. I realize how horrible it makes me seem, to wish death upon a fellow human. You're not human, though. I wish I had more courage. I feel I had responsibility in a way in every time after that one in which I wasn't involved. Had I been brave, maybe you wouldn't be roaming around with the rest of us. I don't hate you. I'm afraid of you. For some inexplicable reason, I can't hate you and fear you at the same time. The thought of you makes me feel sick to my bones and I feel dead inside. I don't have space in my mind to hate you. Your scent makes me sick. Sometimes clients smell like you and I hate them, even though I can't hate you. Flip phones remind me of you. Foam cups. VCRs. And I hate them. I wish you could read this. I wish you could feel the pain you created. Then again, I think you'd like it. Maybe then I'd hate you. Just... stop. Stop. Leave people alone. Stop. Do the world a favor. I'm telling you right now that if I see your face at the bottom of a vodka drink one more time, I'll scream. You know... I'll scream with a voice. A voice. But I stay away from vodka. I stay away from you. Just stay away from me, too. I kept my word. Leave me the fuck alone.
I wish you were dead. I realize how horrible it makes me seem, to wish death upon a fellow human. You're not human, though. I wish I had more courage. I feel I had responsibility in a way in every time after that one in which I wasn't involved. Had I been brave, maybe you wouldn't be roaming around with the rest of us. I don't hate you. I'm afraid of you. For some inexplicable reason, I can't hate you and fear you at the same time. The thought of you makes me feel sick to my bones and I feel dead inside. I don't have space in my mind to hate you. Your scent makes me sick. Sometimes clients smell like you and I hate them, even though I can't hate you. Flip phones remind me of you. Foam cups. VCRs. And I hate them. I wish you could read this. I wish you could feel the pain you created. Then again, I think you'd like it. Maybe then I'd hate you. Just... stop. Stop. Leave people alone. Stop. Do the world a favor. I'm telling you right now that if I see your face at the bottom of a vodka drink one more time, I'll scream. You know... I'll scream with a voice. A voice. But I stay away from vodka. I stay away from you. Just stay away from me, too. I kept my word. Leave me the fuck alone.
"Hipster is what happens when young hot people do what old ladies do." -Exian