Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[Mystical]

Cijs

I've been worried about you.. how are you doing? 

If u need someone to talk to I'm here. Sporadically and at odd hours throughout the day or night, but I'm here. Sorry it's not more, I don't have much to give.. but I know that you would not hesitate to help another in need for even a second! Its so heart breaking knowing good people deal with such shit life experiences almost exclusively alone. Its hard not to be there in person for you especially, right now. I'm barely here for myself. But it doesn't stop my love and affection for you one bit! 

Its rough because I know if you were on a Christian chat or went to church right now, they'd all rally around you and you'd never be short of ears to listen to you amidst an entire room-full or auditorium of people! I wish I could provide that for you. But the comfort I'd feel knowing someone is listening to you and telling you you're loved would be shaded with worry of the guilt and shame simultaneously being laid upon your shoulders with the 'price' you must pay, for that love.  

I don't have an auditorium. Or a group of people to come to your house and put good vibes to the universe for you. All I have is this place, and this place is as good as any because for me it's a home where my heart is. Here I can provide a message not from the transcripts of a representative of an unseen being--but from my heart, now, and the words upon it at this moment, made especially for you. Its nothing fancy, but it is genuine. We aren't in the same room but that doesn't change the fact that I'm oh so glad to have met you!

At many points in our lives, when it comes down to it, we do need faith. Faith in ourselves, faith that the sun will rise again-- and faith that is given, borrowed , gained, or earned from other people. 

I have faith in you.

Everyone needs a hug, especially when they're down. Did you know it releases seratonin happy chemicals to your brain? The mere simple beauty of having another living beings hands  upon you, shines through so effectively on dark days, it's an indication to me that we are meant to be together not alone! Never alone. And yet.. we sometimes strive to be alone. Well, if you feel down then I ask just one thing. Seek out a hug. From a dog or a cat or a parrot or a policeman --preferably definitely a person! Seeking such a reward is sure to bring you back up, I promise.

Atheists..Well, we are supportive in our own ways, mostly single handedly. But sometimes I feel like we need all the hands and all the hearts and all our minds to focus on those of us suffering the most, and speak to those of us who may be currently actively crumbling from the inside out. Because we do need one another. And we are all interconnected more than we can comprehend. 

I feel like we need a humanist support group. But until then, here's some words from my heart. Hopefully you'll read it and know that I'm not the only one who feels it!

You matter. You're precious to so, so many people. You are loved. You will live to see a better day than today. Giving up is not an option, nor is slandering yourself. You are a beautiful creature and deserve to be treated as such. Forgive yourself, and forgive us fellow humans who have caused you harm, please. Because you are going to be all right. Bounce back. Move forward. Get out of that ditch. Pull yourself out of sink sand. Turn a light on in the darkness. Just.. put out your hand. I'll be there for you. We will all, be there for each other, one way or another.

If I could I'd shalala the crap out of you (or just talk to you), feed you some really good home made food someone else cooked (you'd thank me later), and do everything I could do, to help you fight your fights and feel better and right--I would in a heartbeat!

A single. Heart. beat. 


Love till death do us part, your human sister