RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
July 20, 2017 at 6:05 pm
(This post was last modified: July 20, 2017 at 6:11 pm by Regina.)
CIJS - Yknow that situation when you're nice to the weird kid in school, and then they follow you everywhere?
It's even more awkward when that happens with adults.
So when I go into work, I'm very nice and jovial, even if I'm feeling like shit inside really. That's what I give, a professional face. I don't know why this man, who is older than my Dad would be if he were still walking among us, takes my niceness to mean I suddenly want to be best friends with him, to go out for drinks, to go have a meal, or for him to buy me chocolates (which makes me feel pressured to buy something back). He also seems to make a beeline for me at work so we can chat, all the time, like I can't catch a break.
It's bordering on courting, it's that full-on, and I just don't understand it. I could see if maybe we'd been colleagues for a minute and we'd been through a lot together, work-wise. Seriously though, I just met you the other week.
Maybe I'm just an anti-social bastard who doesn't deserve friends, or maybe that's the society I've grown up in, but I can't handle all this obsessive niceness for no reason. It's just odd to me, not having my own space at work because you're following me around to talk to me, and I don't know how to react to it. I should really be self-employed somewhere, so I can just have my chilly little black heart to myself.
People at this job are so messy. I could go down the list tbh... but then I'm too busy daydreaming about sitting on the dreamy Ethiopian guy's face. Why can't he stalk me instead? Ugh.
It's even more awkward when that happens with adults.
So when I go into work, I'm very nice and jovial, even if I'm feeling like shit inside really. That's what I give, a professional face. I don't know why this man, who is older than my Dad would be if he were still walking among us, takes my niceness to mean I suddenly want to be best friends with him, to go out for drinks, to go have a meal, or for him to buy me chocolates (which makes me feel pressured to buy something back). He also seems to make a beeline for me at work so we can chat, all the time, like I can't catch a break.
It's bordering on courting, it's that full-on, and I just don't understand it. I could see if maybe we'd been colleagues for a minute and we'd been through a lot together, work-wise. Seriously though, I just met you the other week.
Maybe I'm just an anti-social bastard who doesn't deserve friends, or maybe that's the society I've grown up in, but I can't handle all this obsessive niceness for no reason. It's just odd to me, not having my own space at work because you're following me around to talk to me, and I don't know how to react to it. I should really be self-employed somewhere, so I can just have my chilly little black heart to myself.
People at this job are so messy. I could go down the list tbh... but then I'm too busy daydreaming about sitting on the dreamy Ethiopian guy's face. Why can't he stalk me instead? Ugh.
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"Ironically like the nativist far-Right, which despises multiculturalism, but benefits from its ideas of difference to scapegoat the other and to promote its own white identity politics; these postmodernists, leftists, feminists and liberals also use multiculturalism, to side with the oppressor, by demanding respect and tolerance for oppression characterised as 'difference', no matter how intolerable." - Maryam Namazie
"Ironically like the nativist far-Right, which despises multiculturalism, but benefits from its ideas of difference to scapegoat the other and to promote its own white identity politics; these postmodernists, leftists, feminists and liberals also use multiculturalism, to side with the oppressor, by demanding respect and tolerance for oppression characterised as 'difference', no matter how intolerable." - Maryam Namazie