(August 27, 2017 at 5:52 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:(August 27, 2017 at 5:29 pm)Cyberman Wrote: I'm just really sick and tired of being on my own.
I hear you. I went through a ten-year slog of being essentially alone, some dating but no meaningful love, and it's rough when people cannot or do not see the great points that you, like all of us, have.
I've not even had that. I just feel like Malcolm McDowell in Star Trek Generations, in that I've known true bliss and had it ripped away, such that I spend my life trying to recapture even a taste of it. But it's forever beyond my reach.
(August 27, 2017 at 5:52 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: If I may speak plainly, one thing I have seen in your posting is what strikes me as a stilted perspective of yourself -- in modern parlance, low self-esteem. I can't say I understand it, because when I read your posts here I see someone who is witty, wise, sometimes acerbic but always on-point, sharp as a tack. I don't know that I have many or any useful ideas how to address what I see as a problem, but I do know that when I've felt down on myself like that, it radiates outwards to others, and gives them perhaps a certain sense of reticence. But if that is indeed an issue, and if you might find a way to address it, it seems to me that your possibilities might open up a little.
Confidence, and insecurity, are both contagious; and often they are both self-reinforcing. People cotton to the former and avoid the latter, which each strengthens the respective feelings you're feeling.
I went out last night. Nothing fancy, just a few drinks. I spent the whole time trying to get just one person to have a drink with me, talk to me. Nobody even saw me.
(August 27, 2017 at 5:52 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: If that is the case, can you think of ways to break that self-fulfilling prophecy?
One; but it hurts my front door if I talk about it.
At the age of five, Skagra decided emphatically that God did not exist. This revelation tends to make most people in the universe who have it react in one of two ways - with relief or with despair. Only Skagra responded to it by thinking, 'Wait a second. That means there's a situation vacant.'